A few years ago, when we were unemployed and I was pregnant and sending out so many cover letters and resumes and CV's that I lost count, I had time. Not money. But time. And I found online giveaways. Most are found in what I (tongue-in-cheek) call the "seedy underbelly of Mom Blogs." So, there is no seedy underbelly of Mom Blogs. But there is a world of Mom Blogs, where they review products and host giveaways from corporate sponsors on their websites. I say Mom Blogs. There are a few Dad Blogs out there, too. A few things I won? an XBox360 gaming console, a gourmet rum cake, a toy vacuum cleaner, a gift credit to Zutano, a Fierce Mamas maternity clothing package, a gift credit to a gift giving website, and an alphabet print to hang in kiddo's room. I think there were a couple other things. Ah. A shower curtain. You can see there's a huge range represented here - baby items, clothing, food, tech gadgets, art, household items, toys, etc. In my search, I discovered prizey.net, a hub that listed giveaways and links to the giveaway sites. It was awesome. It's closing. Lots of folks in our country are hurting right now - layoffs, multiple generations under one roof, hurricane damage, underemployment, the list goes on. Some of you don't have money, but you do have time. So here are a few places you can enter giveaways. A word: 1.) Most blog giveaways work like this: you get a basic entry, like for visiting a manufacturer's website and commenting on the blog about a favorite product. Then you get "extra" entries. They may be "follow me on Twitter," or "enter another of my giveaways," or "follow me on Facebook." Obviously, the more entries you gain, the better your odds of winning. I usually chose the extra entries that didn't involve me being annoying to my Facebook friends or Twitter followers. Also, most "Mom Blogs" have a list on a sidebar of ongoing giveaways, so visiting a Mom Blog for one giveaway will often lead you to more.
2.) Depending on your preference, you may want to set up a different email address or Twitter account to use for entering. Many sites offer extra entries for subscribing to their daily email updates. That can clutter your inbox quickly. On the other hand, it can keep you updated on new giveaways to enter. So here are just a few links to giveaways that would ship in time for the holidays...please feel free to link to additional giveaways in the comment section!
Finally: I must include in my round-up that Mega Blogger Herself, Pioneer Woman. Back in the good old days, my friends and I would enter her tantalizing giveaways with not-too-bad odds. She's so popular now that she'll have 15,000 comment entries for a knife set. Her giveaways are occasional, set up without warning, and last only a couple of days. But they are always awesome.And I love P-Dub, and I live in hope.
These are just a very few of the giveaways whirling around Ye Olde Internet these days.
So patch your threadbare places with an online win or two...you never know when a serendipitous "you won!" email will show up in your inbox. And these days, we all could use a win.
The first time I heard this song, I knew exactly what the imagery portrayed. Anyone who enjoys poetic lyrics knows that occasionally a song comes along to which you can't quite find the key. There's something being described that you understand, if only you know the password.
But after my time spent serving in a nursing home, I grasped these lyrics immediately with a jolt of surprise - after all, how often does one hear a song about, well, long-term care? A beautifully executed song, at that?
Beauty, melancholy, faint absurdity - these echo through this tune like the ringing call bell buzzing down the hallway.
Another way of saying "only God can save us now"?
"Lord, have mercy; Christ, have mercy; Lord, have mercy on me."
Sometimes grief wears funny, lopsided, feathered hats.
Only God Can Save Us Now
Over the Rhine
Margie struck Geneva with her baby doll
Barb knocked off the med cart comin' down the hall
Bob leads the congregation when he sings
How Now Brown Cow
Only God can save us now
Jean says Fuzzy wuzzy fuzzy wuzzy was a bear
Miss Cleve sings Hallelujah from the choir in her chair
Behind his busy apron Raymond's naked standing proud
Only God can save us now
Who will save me
In the night?
When my time has come and it may be comin' soon
Don't mind me if you come to find me howlin' at the moon
I'll need a busy apron and a half-sedated crowd
Only God can save us now
A baby doll some chocolates and flowers made of silk
A clean room with a window and some Prozac in warm milk
And sneak us in some whiskey 'cause it's prob'ly not allowed
Only God can save us now
Wanna take a listen? The songwriter first explains that her mother, a nurse for many years, had a stroke at a relatively young age and now require full-time care. In the course of visiting her at the nursing home, Karin met some other colorful characters - the ones described above.
Wanna hear just the song without the explanatory intro? Here it is (video quality better on this one):
I have a shamrock sitting on the top shelf of the corner shelves. It has survived
forgotten waterings, a move from Kentucky to Texas, and a toddler. It's 3
or 4 years old. And my favorite thing about it, is that occasionally,
the leaves and stems die down, and you think - ah! I fear it's given up
the ghost! But if you trickle a little water and wait a day, up come new
shoots bearing tightly furled purple leaves. It is the phoenix of
plants, and I love it - its cycle of death and resurrection.
Perhaps this is normal for a shamrock - to flourish indoors in a pot for several years, given new soil only once, watered faithfully some weeks and...not so faithfully other weeks.
A few years ago - well, alright, let's see - seven or eight years ago, I made a friend. She sent me a stuffed tiger through the mail (yes, I was an adult). Turns out, we grew up about thirty miles from each other, never knowing in those years we'd grow up, move away, I'd go to seminary and would date the brother of the pastor of her church, then, that we'd go on the same trip to Oxford, England.
I ended up sharing a rambling old house on a small-town thoroughfare with her, her wee son, and our friend Emily.
I got married and moved several miles away, but on Friday nights, she would come over for supper and watch Something British on Netflix, unwinding from her art studio-splattered life. And on one St. Patrick's Day, she brought a shamrock.
I'd never had a shamrock before: ivy, yes; African violets, yes.
When someone gives a gift, it's usual to look at it and think of them - a tiny decorative vintage iron reminds me of my dear friend Krista. A gorgeous, wavy-edged plate with a watercolored pear reminds me of sweet Melissa. They're tangible reminders of people who love me, who live far away. I need that. You need that.
I haven't received many plants as gifts thus far in life, and this is what I've found: they're living. If you're lucky (unlike my friend Emily), they stay living. It's comforting to have something living journey with you from address to address, state to state - even life stage to life stage. After all, I've been caring for this plant longer than I've been caring for a child. This shamrock pre-dates wee Jack (well, there's nothing 'wee' about him). Now, there have been several times that I thought the poor shamrock had bit the dust. But it's always come back. And that's the kind of plant I need - a forgiving one, one that keeps coming back, that doesn't waste a drop of water or slant of sunlight but that uses each little bit as it responds quickly to whatever care is given it. It's never really grown, but - it's never died, either. And Not Going Anywhere is an underappreciated quality.
We Americans like big, flashy, fast. Show us a giant blueberry bush that produces buckets of berries the first season on little fertilizer, and we're hooked - they may have little taste, but they're quick, they're big.
I'm not always great about keeping in touch regularly with good friends. A few months go by before I look up and notice. But the beautiful thing, like this shamrock, is that they're still there. And when a few months go by before I get a call, I am still there too.
If I was superstitious, I'd just think that the shamrock was, well, lucky. But with the enormous upheaval in every area of my life the past few years, I'm just grateful that Something Has Lived - whether newlywed or laid off, pregnant or with a newborn, writing or pastoring, in the Bluegrass or the Lone Star - I've had the same tiny little routine, trickling water onto a shamrock that wouldn't give up.
We run to you, knowing that a great cloud of witnesses cheers us on.
We give you our losses and wins, our faults and virtues, our griefs and hopes.
Take our desire to reach our goals, and give us the desire to know you.
Give us now the desire to be found in you - your resurrection and also your death.
Help us to forget what is behind, to throw off everything that entangles and hinder us, and to run with perseverance the race you have marked out for us.
And provide us with that strength that when we face death, we may say with the Apostle Paul - I have fought the good fight; I have finished the race; I have kept the faith. And may we receive the crown of righteousness given to all who long for Jesus' appearing.
Yesterday, I got a treat: my mother-in-law watched the now-potty-training toddler so that Sweet Husband and I could Go Out for the first time in, say, centuries. Really. Dueling strains of royalty have won, lost, and re-won The Throne of England in less time.
So, brushing aside hours and hours of news coverage and horrific footage, we went to a movie theater, bought tickets for "The Dark Knight Rises," and walked down the sloping aisle into the darkened cinema, where previews were playing. Such a simple series of actions - a routine enacted so many times. I caught myself glancing at the exit locations. I noted each person in the theater (easy - it was a matinee in a rural town...there were six of us). As the first few minutes of the film began to roll, I flinched inwardly, uncomfortably aware of what had transpired as those same images flicked across the screen a couple of states away just a few days ago.
If Christopher Nolan's recently concluded Batman trilogy offered a single truth, it was this: evil exists. And how we choose to acknowledge it, and fight it, matters.
It's not just that mental illness exists. It's not just that lies exist. It's not just that oppression exists. And it's not just that delusion exists. One of the deepest - and most haunting - truths about evil is that it exists because sometimes it is chosen for its own sake.
People do evil things for many reasons, it would seem. Often, however, these reasons end up easily sorted into a few categories. But the evil itself can seem so revolting that we instinctively try to explain how a human being could end up doing such things. So we say they are insane; we say they grew up in negative conditions; we even say they are possessed by Satan. We try to turn our eyes from what horrifies us - that perhaps someone chose evil on purpose.
So, why do people do evil things? On the face of it, the answers are very similar to looking for motives of murder. Why does someone commit murder? What motive is there?
*Gain. In murder mysteries, there is often a contested will at stake. Someone might inherit, and murder is committed. But sometimes gain is not monetary, not so easily counted in a ledger. (And, it should be noted, gain and jealousy are essentially linked: you wish to gain that which someone else has.) Sometimes gain might be a gain of power. And so we see genocides in Africa because one dictator brutally seizes power. And one might even argue that Hitler unleashed the evils of the Holocaust for power - to take over Europe. But I don't think that fully explains his actions.
*Revenge. Sometimes in who-dun-it's, the murderer is acting to take his or her revenge. Hatred or fury born of grief or injustice drives a person to kill. And sometimes evil on a larger scale than Agatha Christie's novels occurs because someone wants revenge. So, if a loved one is killed by a member of a larger group, the entire group is punished. A cinematic example is when young, fledgling Darth Vader slaughters the entire village of his mother's killer. A tragic real example is the death and horror wrought by two high school students who had been bullied at an educational institution called Columbine.
*Self-Preservation. Again, in a murder mystery genre, self-preservation often drives subsequent murders - a witness of the original crime, for instance. But I think that rarely does self-preservation elicit the original act of evil. Self-preservation often follows illicit gain or acts of revenge.
*Commitment to an ideology. Rarely does this ever factor in a classic murder mystery; perhaps sometimes in horror fiction. And that's strange, because this one has been talked about so much in the last 10 years, in light of evil acts perpetrated by terrorists. Even some Nazis fought for their country without embracing Hitler's all-consuming passion to exterminate Jews.Evil can be done in the name of an ideology, but in general, I tend to think that crazed dictators with a fervent ideology tend to attract sociopaths or psychopaths who kill for its own sake.
*Love. Now, occasionally this motive pops up in mystery lit. But let it be said that genuine love never allows evil to enter in. Killing for love, for instance, is not nearly as likely as killing for revenge (you took my loved one away) or even gain (I think I can gain my beloved's approval through this act - which, in fact, is a motive of fear - fear of not receiving love from the object of your interest). But, as biblical wisdom gently reminds us, perfect love casts out fear.
Now, because I'm not a psychiatrist, I will set aside evil done as a result of mental illness - except to say this: I think it is much, much rarer that people do evil things as a result of "insanity" than we tend to think, here in the 21st century. And one fascinating comment that addressed the recent Aurora, Colorado movie theater shooting suggested that we do a disservice to the mentally ill by assuming that any horrific act of violence must necessarily spring from mental illness, and that, in fact, sometimes people just do bad things. And who was it who said this? A psychiatrist.
So, then, we come to what really bothers us. Because many of us have ideas about why, in general, people do evil things - so those of us who believe in God may think, say, that with free will, humans choose their own actions, however hurtful or grotesque. So what really bothers us?
The idea that someone could choose evil for its own sake. Many of us could imagine killing someone in self-defense, or in the act of defending an innocent person. A few of us could imagine killing someone out of revenge, say. But most of us are deeply bothered by the idea of doing something so apparently evil so casually. Often, the closest we get is glimpses of the idea that something so obviously evil to everyone else seeming like a trivial game to the perpetrator. Many people who could do something evil, or not, just as easily, are labeled sociopaths. But even sociopaths can live by a code, as the hit TV series "Dexter" assumes (Dexter is a sociopath with an urge to kill; but he lives by a code - he only kills those he's sure "deserve" it - killers, rapists, etc.). If a sociopath can choose to live by a code, then the flip side of the argument is that a sociopath can choose not to live by a moral code. And even then, we often acknowledge some limited understanding of sociopaths - we know they don't feel emotion the way most people do, or that their moral compass was never set the way everyone else's was.
But can a person who isn't a sociopath choose evil for its own sake? Or must all people who choose evil for its own sake necessarily be sociopaths?
Let me give you an example. A humiliating example. When I was a little kid, I have two distinct memories of choosing to do something wrong that would hurt someone else. The first instance, my brother did or said something that made me angry, and I gave in to a delicious instinct: I took pleasure in hitting him as hard as I could on the back. Now, I was five years older, so there was a considerable size difference. And unfortunately, to my mercenary little self, my mother saw it happen from the other room. Fortunately, for my future self, my mother saw it from another room. I was heartily disciplined, and had better character for it.
Then, a year or two later perhaps, the inner monster struck again. I hated playing outside when it was hot, and I loved listening in to adult conversation. So when one of mom's friends came for a visit, I wanted to be inside. But how to set the circumstances so that I could get in? I knew saying I wanted to come in to play wouldn't work. It wasn't that hot out, and I was a fairly inactive child who preferred reading to physical activity. She would shoo me outside for fresh air. Unless...unless the little girl mom babysat got bitten on the arm by my brother, who had been going through a biting phase. So I took the girl aside, convinced her to bite herself on the arm (I have no idea why she listened to me), told her to cry harder and tell mom that my brother had done it. Apparently she wasn't too bright. She did all this. My brother got a wailing of a lifetime. But to my intense disappointment, I was only in for 20 or 30 minutes before being sent outside to play again. It was years - years - before I laughingly brought up the incident, sure I had been caught and punished at some point in the past. My family sat with dropped jaws. "You did...what?!?"
Now literally or figuratively, by the grace of God, I no longer hit others for the distinct pleasure of it, nor do I set up circumstances to frame other people in order to get what I want. Perhaps I've only learned that I'll get caught and punished. Except that - with the occasional exception of wanting to punch someone in the nose, which rises from temper and not from calculated estimation of pleasure of punching - I don't have the desire to punch for pleasure or frame others to get my way anymore. I do have the desire to help others. But for some reason, at various points of childhood, adolescence, and adulthood - I chose to do the right thing instead of the evil thing. Perhaps I started choosing to do the right thing because I wanted to do the right thing. Perhaps I wanted to do the right thing because I saw and liked the positive impact it had on others' lives and my own. I do know that I, today, could choose evil, but I don't want to anymore. And it bothers us as fellow humans on this planet to know that some folks still do choose evil, because they still want to.
And I suspect that, since all of us were children at one point or another, we can remember moments of pure selfishness or conniving or cruelty that we are now ashamed of. But deep down, we know that, literally or figuratively, but for the grace of God, we would still choose those actions. Which makes us much closer to hurting others for our own purposes than we would like to admit. Which makes us more capable of deeper evil than we care to imagine.
And that - that - is what really bothers us. It's not the dissimilarity between you and a mass murderer. It's the uncomfortable points of likeness.
My Sweet Husband is a pushover for babes. Last night, surrounded by sticky nephews and golf jokes and a sweating glass carafe of water, I watched him pull A Move.
Single girls know this move. It's the faux-casual motion of a guy trying to sneak a glance, arms out, in sudden need of a stretch, maybe; or standing up restlessly, casting eyes around the room a couple of times in a sweeping motion that encompasses the person of interest.
I watched with wry amusement as my husband performed this ritual, and no jealousy pulsed in my veins, no shock. Because he's not a pushover for co-eds in tight sweaters: he's a pushover for fingers a half an inch long, curled around a thumb; a fuzz of hair spreading over a brand-new scalp; kitten-sized tongues poking from a mouth just learning to smile.
Last night, in the restaurant, there was mindblowingly cute newborn baby.
My sister-in-law pointed this out, cocking her head for a view around a partition. Sweet husband perked up his ears and made His Move, casually wandering around Nana, glancing with little interest at Friday night diners, turned in a circle at the edge of the partition, and, as soon as tiny infant was out of view again, rushed back to our table mouthing "OH. MY. GOSH!" with wide eyes more associated with "I just saw Harrison Ford ordering red velvet pancake hush puppies!" or "I just saw Liam Neeson dribble some iced tea" or "I just saw" any one of a number of celebrities.
The point is, he loves tiny humans. And as treacherous as days with a toddler prove to be, it is a joy to watch Sweet Husband parent. Before we married, I remember thinking, "it would be okay to have a son if he was going to grow up to be like this man."
This past week friend (and writer) Jenna-Clare Allen pointed out the ups and downs of parenting:
Parenting is such a hard job. Sometimes it feels like it is all work and discipline, discipline and work. I am so profoundly thankful for peaceful days with my buddy--days where he reminds me of how much I like him and enjoy him as a person--these kinds of days sustain me when we go through the rougher weeks and months of parenting. For the past couple of hours, we sat together on the couch staring out at the falling snow. He sat in my lap, with his arms around my neck, playing with my hair and told me all about life on planet earth as William sees it. He talked and talked. What a fascinating, weird, beautiful soul he has. So thankful for this time to breathe and enjoy each other. Thanks, Wilbo Waggins--I really needed that.
One of the sweetest songs known universally begins, "Hush, little baby, don't say a word,
Papa's gonna buy you a mockingbird
And if that mockingbird don't sing,
Papa's gonna buy you a diamond ring. And if that diamond ring turn brass,
Papa's gonna buy you a looking glass. And if that looking glass gets broke,
Papa's gonna buy you a billy goat. And if that billy goat don't pull,
Papa's gonna buy you a cart and bull. And if that cart and bull turn over,
Papa's gonna buy you a dog named Rover. And if that dog named Rover won't bark.
Papa's gonna to buy you and horse and cart. And if that horse and cart fall down,
Well you'll still be the sweetest little baby in town."
Parents hum this as the deep impulse to Make Everything Okay wraps our arms around a crying baby or wipes tears from pudgy cheeks. No matter what the economy is like, we want to have just enough in a bank account for the going price of a mockingbird. The bittersweet pill, of course, is that parents can't always make it alright. We try to hide this from our children for a while, or reveal it to them in stages - Lindsay's parents can't take away her lymphoma, some kids don't have enough to eat. We pull back the curtain gradually, knowing that this knowledge will help make our children compassionate and tender, but oh, how we wish we could buy the world a mockingbird and make it all alright.
Sometimes, like Jenna-Clare wrote, our children surprise us at just the right moment with a mockingbird of their own. Sometimes a loving spouse brings a mockingbird along right when we need it most.
Sometimes, I pray the world would sit on a couch, watching snow fall, saying "wow - we've had a rough day, haven't we? Let's just sit still for a while and enjoy each other's company."
Even so, O Lord, come quickly.
And til then, send us flocks of mockingbirds.